Job
Saturday, September 22, 2007
So, its kinda official, I've accepted a job with the State. I am excited! This means I am going to be getting benefits, making money, and it turns out this is work that I am really loving! I started last Wednesday and things are going really well. I am getting real work, and i am working with some great people (both support and attorneys). I can't tell you how excited I am. I can't wait until I can actually call myself an attorney and really have this job. . .
You see, that's the catch. I am not officially an attorney yet. I get to do legal analysis; I went to school to learn how to do that. What I don't get to do is sign my name on anything I do if it goes to court. I don't get to have my opinion be the final opinion on anything. . . I don't get to be an attorney until I am licensed by the state. Readers know that I took the bar exam in July. I have not posted that results are out, because results are not out. The State needs an attorney in this job. I am only working at this job to take the slant out of my learning curve after I get licensed.
That's a bit of a problem with this job. I get fired if the bar results come out and I didn't pass. I accepted the job knowing that. I REALLY needed the money. I can't imagine not doing this job. I worked my ass off this summer studying for the bar. I watched my life fall down around my ears and still I studied every day. My best friend moved away, and I still spent time every day studying instead of making the most of the time we had left together. I almost lost my damn identity to the stress of this summer. I don't want to regret what I missed. I want this to pay off. I NEED this to pay off.
Tonight I am in Denver. Tonight I am going to go out and have a good time with a friend I am lucky to see once a year, if that often. Tonight I am going to try to forget about this, if only for tonight. Thanks for letting me vent. It won't be long now, I hope, until these questions are resolved.
posted by ZEUS @ 5:02 PM,
